When something touches your emotional side you see nothing else

It is 11:50 in the night, uptill an hour ago and I was raging in anger after seeing the spiced up story posted up on the C2W blog and seeing my comments and comments by those who supported me being deleted on that blog, my mind was constantly speaking with me on what was correct and justified, but just a few moments back I saw a message by rahul242424 on my C2W message board that he by god's blessing's got a 1 month old baby and swear by it that he hasn't done what I pointed out in a recent post.

You know we all value our opinions and always try to stand by it, but for me my opinions are less valuable as compared to my feelings for others. He just by saying that he "swear by his baby" has touched my emotional side, I felt like crying on seeing that message. What I felt was that my soul telling me that please dump this issue you cannot give so much pains to a newly made father, he is undergoing such an important phase in life.

Lets say it was a reason-X that has brought us so much far from human feelings. Nobody knows what this "X" reason was, it can be me forgetting to add enough questions, could be rahul mistakenly deleting my questions, could be a computer error, could be what God desired...anything. I was adamant to carry on with this issue but I am not a sadistic person who gets pleasure by inflicting pain on others. If you give pain to others the thoughts afterwards torture you more than what any physical harm can do.

Now after seeing his message I have replied him back and now my conscience is speaking to me like "oh Rahul please come online and see my message, I dont want to make you upset". And seriously I feel like I am too tired and want to sit on a chair, but the chair is adorned with many needles(just comparing the state of my mind at present).

Lets all pledge to be more amicable and frank in our life, Problems should be taken into consideration as soon as they occur, if they are given time to develop then it would even take more time to bridge(eliminate) them together.

Now I really want to give the prizes I won to rahul, earlier it was as a feeling of attitude, now it is more as a feeling of gratitude and my hearty wishes for his newborn baby.

phew!!, I am too tired to type more, my vexed mind needs some time to relax, it feels like my brain is just tearing apart, so much pain that it's unbearable, really!

Technology Getting Into Our Heads

I've been always using my internet for making money, but lately since my laptop's wifi died due to reformatting of the OS, I am therefore left with no other option to use internet than to be back thriving on my desktop. There is a rule of life that if there is any good and better thing and an ordinary one, mostly individuals go for the better one. Same is the case with me, the laptop(gifted by my brother as he got one more from his company) slowly began developing interest in me.

I remember when the booting in desktop took nearly 4 minutes and shutdown about half of it. But when I switched to the laptop the booting and processing times decreased gradually. Earlier days of the laptop and I was using laptop for casual surfing and desktop for work, but slowly as development work slowed down I began to be more often using the lappy. After few days of using the laptop the desktop was nearly abandoned by me, only got started when my father had any work on it.

But there have always been technological problems on my systems, when Laptop was on the desktop's internet connection wont work, So when papa was using internet I had to play those monotonous games on my system(codename eagle, just flying the airplane and performing aerobatics, crashing, takeoff, landings...repeatedly). But still it was ok with me.

Now the things have changed, as the LAN & WLAN adapters aren't getting detected on lappy so to be on desktop is only option for me at this moment. When good things turn worse, it irritates. The cyber world has again got slow, the internet is too spasmodic. The Technology is really getting into our heads.

About Me

Though this blog has been made the most toughest part is to decide from where to begin. I presume this will be a temporary issue and the flow of thoughts will eventually smoothen out.

I am Ankit Bhatia, a person who has a heart full of love for nature, mostly truthful and have a kind heart for everyone except for those who harm nature and those who think materialism is worth more than morality. I am a strict lacto-vegetarian and moreover also promote vegetarianism whenever get a chance to.

I used to think that I am very emotional, but after much retrospection I came to a conclusion that I am not emotional for what the world shed tears. I do not have any specific feeling when I see any death but rather the pain anyone undergoes makes me emotional. When I see little children on streets asking for alms or a dog writhing with pain after an accident it brings tear to my eyes. I know the world might not be able to justify my feelings but the main aspect is that these are my feelings and I cannot change it.

I love technology but lately I have started to feel the world without "intense" technology would have been better(Pardon me but I am still using this laptop!!). I am a thinker, would keep on thinking about incidents and "what could be" "what should be" "why did they" blah blah these types of queries surround me.

I do not believe in life after death but I want to live forever. I used to write poems earlier but have been out of streak for quite some time. I feel the urge to write songs although never gave it a try.

Welcome Everyone

Hello all, often in life we want to have an existence; existence according to me is having our presense in the memories of oneself as well as others. I am creating this blog so that I could cherish and recollect the good memories as well as browse through the nemesis moments of my life.

This blog was for long waiting to be made. This blog is not for fame or to hurt anyone's feeling but simply a recollection of thoughts that goes in my mind and also what I deem as correct or incorrect. Basically it is a place which would help me to talk with my own soul.

Any comments from those who know me or those who would like to know me or even those who want to mention brickbats are welcomed.